Fitting but not quite comforting....Yet!

"I'm Gonna Find Another You"
by John Mayer
It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you
Yeah and she's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you 

Careful what you wish for

My wish for both my brother and sister to be living near me has finally come true. So why am I not jumping up and down in absolute joy over any of this news? Because it comes at the expense of their happiness and painful circumstances...that's why. Selfishly, I have always wanted them to move back so I could have them around when I needed them or wanted them. Now am going to have that and feel awful about it. I wish they were coming back under different circumstances. I think from now on, when I make a wish, I will specify the circumstances in which the wish may occur. I can do that, right? 


I am pretty thrilled to have their company. Thrilled to have someone to walk with. Thrilled to have someone to go to the park with to play frisbee. Thrilled that Jakob and Lauren will be closer...if that's even possible. Simply thrilled!

Epiphany

As I try really hard to hold in the tears while heating up left over macaroni and cheese, I think I realize why I have an overwhelming sense of fear and intense feeling of wanting to cry. I think I realize that these feelings aren't soley due to the break up of my last relationship and loss of probably a most important, meaningful best friendship, but that I am getting back to me again. It's not only scary to me but at the same time it's a sense of relief. I missed me. 

Lemme tell ya something, Marvin....

Fuck you, you fucking fuck! You have made my life complete hell for the last two fucking days! I don't know what the fuck prompted you to change the way we have done things in the past, but guess what you fucking sneaky little fuck....we're on to you and you're not changing a fucking thing! You fucking think you're so fucking smart with your legal jargon and accounting capafuckingbilities. You fucking thought that you could just do whatever you fucking want without consulting anyone else just becuause you were granted power of fucking attorney. NEWSFLASH FUCK FACE....you can't! And...when you fucking try, we'll put a stop to it real fucking quick...AND, I'll make your life fucking hell in the process. This small town, young, naive assistant is fucking smarter than you fucking think, asshole!


FUCK YOU!

I feel so much better now. I think I'm going to read some John Grisham.

Chi, Chi, Chi....Le, Le, Le....Los Mineros de Chile!

What an incredibly amazing outcome to what could've had a tragic ending! I've been sobbing on and off all day long! I saw the first miner surface around midnightish today (Oct. 13) and would wake up throughout the night and turn on the television to see if the rescue mission was still moving foward without any setbacks.  I watched anxiously all day long and now the last miner has been brought to the surface! All 33 of them! And, they all appear to be in relatively really good condition. Talking. Smiling. All in tact...no visibly serious injuries. They all walked away on their own! Could you imagine? Being trapped approximately a half mile below the ground for 70 days? The first 17 days these men didn't know if anyone was looking for them or if they'd even survive. Their families and loved ones not knowing for 17 long, excruciating days if these men were alive and/or well. This is an example of how I am proud of technology now. They were able to communicate with other people on the "outside". They could receive necessities to keep them alive while waiting for their chance to be rescued. I'm sure this played a humungous part in keeping them alive, healthy both physically and mentally. I still can't believe there was not one single set back! That's fantabulous! Not only is that part of this story incredible, but these miners were rescued at least one month earlier than what they thought could be done. AND.....the estimated time it would take to pull each miner to the surface in the capsule was approximately 36 hours. This was all done in under 24 hours! BUT.....there are still at least four rescuers underground that need to come to surface safely. These folks risked their lives to save these men. So, I will continue to pray, send positive thoughts, etc. to these people in hopes that their ending is just as happy.


Chi Chi Chi...
Le Le Le...
Los Mineros de Chile!

Here goes nothin'....

First, I want to start of by thanking the one, the only, Colin...aka Sweet Beefy Biscuits...for opening the gateway...for kicking me in the buttocks so I would start my very own blog. Wow. I feel like there's so much pressure here. Not sure why. It's my blog. You don't like it, well....don't read it. 

I just returned home from calling hours, funeral services and a celebration of Jeff's life. It was a very sweet and sad moment for so many. I'm sure he is very impressed and very proud of how we all sent him off and celebrated his life. Jeff was taken from this place too soon. I looked at Dixie several times and my heart just ached for her. I cannot imagine her pain. I am going to miss dancing to John Brown's Body with him. Jammin' to the Steve Morgan & Chris Merkley band with him. 

I've said this so many times before, and I'll say it so many more times in my life, but hug those who you care about. Never ever let a single day go by letting someone wonder or question just exactly how you feel about them and what they mean to you. 

On that note....I think I'm going to do just that. 'Scuse meh....I have some text messages to send.